We are all we got.

So my mom left this for me one morning...

"Bree is a steady stream of energy, scintillating sunshine shimmering as she moves through the day. This leggie, woman-child leaping, laughing, lover her way through life was my frustration when she was you and my companion as i grow older. Her room erupts with a fusion of child and woman evidenced by the dry witted cartoons plastered about her room, the doodlings of her youth and the collections of photography peppering her walls. Her body is one of constant movement and endlessly dancing from morning to night leaving me breathless as she swishes by me escaping into the night in revelry with friends. As i watch her, this gazelle , as thin as a willow bending in the wind, i realize how lucky i am to be her mother."

(Temple Graduation 2006, it took her like 30 years to finish but she did it.)

I love my mom.
We may have nothing, and every year she always says things will get better and they never do. Things just seem to get worse. But if theres one thing i will never be without, that's my mom. The one person i can count on. Thank you for everything. We will be OK one day all we need is you and me.

I wish you didn't drop this rock on me.

This is one of the shittiest feelings I've had in awhile. Breaking up sucks especially when you don't hate each other. And all you want to do is hangout with them, and be normal. But it's not you can't hangout, because it would just make things worse. What do you do when someones just moving, someone tell me because i don't know, I think once hes gone it will be easier maybe but knowing he's right down the street, and you will end up seeing each other at one point sucks. I pretty much just want to cry. The only thing that makes me mad is that you think I can't handle that your leaving, Let me decide what i can handle. This just sucks, i suck, someone shut me up.

way to move to California.

My grandmother is insane. 5hrs at gvh.

So far my grandmother has...
-cursed me
-tried to hook me up with a married doctor
-hit on all the EMTs
-yelled at a nurse for making a joke
-said she has to bury her dead aunt
-said she is getting married
-keeps talking about a greyhound bus
-said she is holding a baby
-keeps saying people are laying on her or next to her
-doesn't know where she is
-she keeps making faces and rolling her eyes
-crying and laughing
-says she doesn't love me
-wont take her pills
-keeps cursing
-she wont stop talking about this damn BUS!

if i didn't know better she was drunk or high, and i want some so grandma give it up i need to have some fun too!

eff my life.