Not bowing down.

I've got my shit together for once. My whole life i had nothing, or the bare minimum. Everything i have ever had, i had to work my ass off for, 5 jobs at once not a fun life. And i know my mom would help me out if she could but she can just keep her head above water. I do not love her less or spite her for this. If anything it has made me a better person, and has made me stronger. I got my life together. I am moving out with good people into a nice house. Not an shit house/apart. but a nice house and a place i am proud to say i live there. Unlike most place i have lived. When i was little parents didnt want there kids at my house, becasue it wasn't safe place, or the people there aka my father/his friends/and then my moms ass whole bf were there. No more of that people can actually come to my house and not be sketched out. And how i might pay for this awesome house you ask. Well i got a job. Just one not 5. A real frickin job, benifits, and all. And it what i want to do and what im going to school for. I work at 3W Marketing now, and a marketing/sales rep. and it's sick! This will finally get me over my hump for school tuition too. I'm about 400 short. and buy July 31st i will have paid for school all on my own. No parents, no loans, no aid. I got that shit together by myself.

Fucking the H8ters.
I'm going somewhere.
Tickets anyone?

Grow.

So i think i havn't updated in a while because my last up date got me down we didnt get that house. But shits looking up. Hope is on the horizon. We have a house on Hewson street. And its a really nice place, move in date is Aug 1st. This is either going to bring up together or tear us a part. but whatever the experiance will be worth it.
Right now i my current reading list is goodnight moon, the giving tree, and other childrens books. All i do is read bedtime stories, and kiss boo boos, and feed. I have somehow aquired two small children. 5 and 7 year old. There mother go this great idea to leave them with me all the freaking time and they live at my house. 6 people in a 2 bedroom aprt. I love the girls Kayla and Makenzie (idk if i spelled there names right) but we go out and people think there mine! sweet im 18 and have two kids! Do i really look like i have had 2 kids! what a frickin downer! i need to work out! This makes me not want to ever have kids. Keep telling myself just keep popin those pills!

Quick fact about my life (that on one cares about)
-I love abbey aka GF
-I love leigh nash!
-I love Tiwi and TB
-I'm moving Aug 1 to fishtown
-I have 2 kids
-I go to Bucks
-I don't have a bf but i have ABBEY!
-I love Food!
-I paint houses
-I don't have a life