Good the Bad and the Ugly

Good:
-Found a cute morning place to eat that makes awesome pancakes
-Found an old movie theater that plays old movies like the county in dtown
-Found a park to sit and eat
-Found a vegan hot dog/burger joint that's cool
-Roommates are cool
-Think I have a job again at American Apparel


Bad:
-Trains/bus make no sense, they might as well not have a schedule
-Train/bus fee system makes no sense some you pay before you get on others after you get on some you don't even pay on the train, you pay at a booth. So i said eff all you and didn't pay.
-My school sucks at there job so I have to drop a class so I have money to live

UGLY:
-People here suck
-No one can dress themselves
-Everyone is "slow"/inbreed
-Have not met one person I would ever consider talking too
-Everyone is creepy and stares

Side Note: I have never seen more blind people in my entire life, there is something in the water.

Night 1 Day 1 Pittsburgh.

The ride down was harsh as soon as I pulled away I started to cry a little. I looked back seeing Andy and Abbey having fun in my front lawn as I pulled away. It sucked, I'm seriously going to miss my friends. I always think I don't really have that many friends at least really close ones, I still do think that but, I found out I have a few more friends than I thought. Alli had a going away thing for me and that was great. I really appreciated it, Shes a great girl. I was so happy to see everyone their.
Anyways on the drive to Pitt I kept seeing roads with the name ending in "Gap". I hate that word, it makes me feel like it's such a far distance from everyone and everything, and there is nothing out west here. There is a Gap in time, its like a black whole of nothing, farm after farm after farm.
I finally got into the city of Pitt. and it isn't horrible but it is small. And everything surrounding it is really just the suburbs, just housing everywhere. My house being part of it, if i had to explain my new home of Dormant, it is a cross between Doylestown, with the shops, and Perkasie with the hick vibe. It is very small and very mountainous. Now the house itself... Its old but better than what I'm used too, there is a lot of room. My room, first thing I noticed smelled straight up like WEED, I was laughing/kind of annoyed. Its gone now, but I thought, really...another thing my room is freezing. Good thing my mom is smart and brought a space heater. On a good note my room is big, so is my bathroom, and other "art" room. It has been raining so I haven't explored much, but my mom and I went to Walmart, omg is stuff cheap here.
I'm not miserable, but not happy yet, it doesn't help that i FORGOT HALF OF MY CLOTHS, I really want to kick myself for it right now, but mom says she will ship them out. Overall life isn't horrible my roomates are nice, I still haven't met the one, but I'm sure it will be ok. Life in Pittsburgh has just begun, I have a long road ahead of me...

I MISS...
DAVE
LEIGH
ABBEY
CHAD
NATASHA
RAUN
HOBER
"THE BOYS/PERVS"
THE GIRLS IN MY LIFE
PHILLY CHEESESTEAKS
KNOWING WHERE I AM GOING! omg do i hate being lost.

I am Human and I want to be Loved, Just like every body else does.

Looking back on life isn't aways a good idea. Remembering what you had and how great it was, and then you see what you have now, and its well...disappointing sometimes. You don't want to go back but your always afraid you will never get to that place again. Maybe this is as good as it gets? Maybe I should be happy that it isn't worse?

I am happy,
Sometimes.

I Just wanna be adored...