Ugh.

I have been in the crappiest mood the past few days. Everything pisses me off, not so much my friends but my bf. He really doesn't do anything, I'm just mad at nothing. I get annoyed that I can't see him, but when I can see him I'm still pissed. I makes no sense. I have had a headache all weekend too, it such a bummer. Besides me being a psychotic gf, I had a lot of fun getting snowed in with Abbey, Leigh, Chad and Jake. We had a good slumber party, and played in the snow. I kind a just sat there but it still had fun. I love my friends Pittsburgh's gonna blow.

I want to look like her...

new hair idea. My goal length by september. Think my hair can grow that fast? lets hope so.So life thus far...My new goal for money is to save my checks from CTC, and only us the money from cutting hair and stuff to pay for stuff like gas. lets also hope this plan works as well. I have a cold that i can't shake its driving me nutz, i want a new nose. I have also been collecting fabric from CTC, i can't wait to sew stuff I'm working on a skirt right now but theres no room in my apartment so its annoying. Only about 7 more weeks till i move. Totally bummed. Its not helping that my financial aid is effed up and my school is a bunch of tards. I hate that place already.

Slow and steady wins the race...

Things that have changes since my last post, well I'm happy. My blog was getting to depressing for me so I stopped. I'm back with my boy, and I feel like it's working. Before I always felt like something was missing. This time around I think we are on the same page for once, and it feels awesome. I'm so much happier and not stressing about stupid stuff and being jealous over nothing. It has taken a long time but its worth it.

I'm moving to pittsburgh in a few weeks to start school, and hopefully start a career with my life. Beauty school and having my license just isn't enough I want more. I want to travel and do models, and actresses, and broadway productions. So if i can make it through college, I think I can make it though anything, we all know i suck at school, im better at the whole life thing. I have mixed feeling about the whole move to pittsburgh.

School itself is what i cant wait for and starting my art classes. The downside is its pittsburgh, nothings really there, i will miss my friends like crazy, and i'm afraid moving is going to eff up the relationship i have tried so hard for to work. Its finally perfect and i move. Just my luck right...im hoping it works out.

Other cool things I got a new tattoo, i think its pretty cute. I finally got a new sewing machine so I'm trying to spend more time sewing less time using technology. I am also getting a car within the next week are so, its a VW Golf, i need to learn stick though...this should be funny.

All in all I'm happy, it has taken me along time to get where i am. Being happy with myself, relationships with friends and my guy, school, everything really...

It just goes to show that

Slow and Steady Wins the Race.

It was a good Run...

I was the girl with her head on her shoulders and stayed on the right path, but sometimes a few bolts come loose and I like to wonder through the woods. Lets hope I don't go to far and get lost.

I hate to admit it, but it finally happened, I'm the one that feels the pain.

I'm broken, and it's not a bone.

We are all we got.

So my mom left this for me one morning...

"Bree is a steady stream of energy, scintillating sunshine shimmering as she moves through the day. This leggie, woman-child leaping, laughing, lover her way through life was my frustration when she was you and my companion as i grow older. Her room erupts with a fusion of child and woman evidenced by the dry witted cartoons plastered about her room, the doodlings of her youth and the collections of photography peppering her walls. Her body is one of constant movement and endlessly dancing from morning to night leaving me breathless as she swishes by me escaping into the night in revelry with friends. As i watch her, this gazelle , as thin as a willow bending in the wind, i realize how lucky i am to be her mother."

(Temple Graduation 2006, it took her like 30 years to finish but she did it.)

I love my mom.
We may have nothing, and every year she always says things will get better and they never do. Things just seem to get worse. But if theres one thing i will never be without, that's my mom. The one person i can count on. Thank you for everything. We will be OK one day all we need is you and me.

I wish you didn't drop this rock on me.

This is one of the shittiest feelings I've had in awhile. Breaking up sucks especially when you don't hate each other. And all you want to do is hangout with them, and be normal. But it's not you can't hangout, because it would just make things worse. What do you do when someones just moving, someone tell me because i don't know, I think once hes gone it will be easier maybe but knowing he's right down the street, and you will end up seeing each other at one point sucks. I pretty much just want to cry. The only thing that makes me mad is that you think I can't handle that your leaving, Let me decide what i can handle. This just sucks, i suck, someone shut me up.

way to move to California.

My grandmother is insane. 5hrs at gvh.

So far my grandmother has...
-cursed me
-tried to hook me up with a married doctor
-hit on all the EMTs
-yelled at a nurse for making a joke
-said she has to bury her dead aunt
-said she is getting married
-keeps talking about a greyhound bus
-said she is holding a baby
-keeps saying people are laying on her or next to her
-doesn't know where she is
-she keeps making faces and rolling her eyes
-crying and laughing
-says she doesn't love me
-wont take her pills
-keeps cursing
-she wont stop talking about this damn BUS!

if i didn't know better she was drunk or high, and i want some so grandma give it up i need to have some fun too!

eff my life.