This is hardcore

ruled!

besides me having a seizures during let down, and not remembering Saturday at all!
and then throwing up today before Ceremony.

Go me!

Bree Ariana Wood

Is SINGLE.

And has been for the past 8 months.

theres no gray,

only

Black
and
white.

It's clear now.
sorry.

What is my Malfunction?

So my life is ok, i have a nice house with my best friends, I'm a happy person for the most part, im going to school, i am currently not work but im trying, but all this shit i can figure out and get under control, what i cant is guys, i am constanly running into
A. guys with gf (who think its ok to lie and tell me there single)
B. guys that can get over there EX (and string me along)
C. Assholes that just want TO HANG OUT HANG OUT (not into it, so dont try)
It is driving me nutz, and whats reallu annoying is, it seems to be that, i am always the girl before the gf, I say hay can we just hang out to and not do shit, and then they dont wanna hang out, sorry im not a hoe.
I think maybe i have a malfunction,

Is it that horrible to just hang out with me, and not get anything out of it?

Not bowing down.

I've got my shit together for once. My whole life i had nothing, or the bare minimum. Everything i have ever had, i had to work my ass off for, 5 jobs at once not a fun life. And i know my mom would help me out if she could but she can just keep her head above water. I do not love her less or spite her for this. If anything it has made me a better person, and has made me stronger. I got my life together. I am moving out with good people into a nice house. Not an shit house/apart. but a nice house and a place i am proud to say i live there. Unlike most place i have lived. When i was little parents didnt want there kids at my house, becasue it wasn't safe place, or the people there aka my father/his friends/and then my moms ass whole bf were there. No more of that people can actually come to my house and not be sketched out. And how i might pay for this awesome house you ask. Well i got a job. Just one not 5. A real frickin job, benifits, and all. And it what i want to do and what im going to school for. I work at 3W Marketing now, and a marketing/sales rep. and it's sick! This will finally get me over my hump for school tuition too. I'm about 400 short. and buy July 31st i will have paid for school all on my own. No parents, no loans, no aid. I got that shit together by myself.

Fucking the H8ters.
I'm going somewhere.
Tickets anyone?

Grow.

So i think i havn't updated in a while because my last up date got me down we didnt get that house. But shits looking up. Hope is on the horizon. We have a house on Hewson street. And its a really nice place, move in date is Aug 1st. This is either going to bring up together or tear us a part. but whatever the experiance will be worth it.
Right now i my current reading list is goodnight moon, the giving tree, and other childrens books. All i do is read bedtime stories, and kiss boo boos, and feed. I have somehow aquired two small children. 5 and 7 year old. There mother go this great idea to leave them with me all the freaking time and they live at my house. 6 people in a 2 bedroom aprt. I love the girls Kayla and Makenzie (idk if i spelled there names right) but we go out and people think there mine! sweet im 18 and have two kids! Do i really look like i have had 2 kids! what a frickin downer! i need to work out! This makes me not want to ever have kids. Keep telling myself just keep popin those pills!

Quick fact about my life (that on one cares about)
-I love abbey aka GF
-I love leigh nash!
-I love Tiwi and TB
-I'm moving Aug 1 to fishtown
-I have 2 kids
-I go to Bucks
-I don't have a bf but i have ABBEY!
-I love Food!
-I paint houses
-I don't have a life

Movin on up!

Ok well we may not be the Jeffersons, but there are 4 of us, and we all have shitty homes that we are trying to get out of. And just like the Jeffersons, i think the girls and I have found a spot of our own. It's really sweet looking and i hope that i works out. We got the credit report in and now we are waiting to hear back. It has 4 floors basement 1, 2, 3. And a patio outside. So we can lay out and have creepy peepers, creepin all day long! ha It's in Fishtown, and its 2 blocks from the L, and basically it rules. If we don't get this house im gonna freak, 1, becasue i am tired of looking and calling people and driving to philly all the time to look at shit, and 2 this is the perfect house.

Frick I am so excitted!

Rm 498

Tonight it really hit me. My mom is all i have. It took me 8hrs in a ER to figure that out. But it hit me. I am alone in this world, i have no other family. The whole time i was there i was just trying to think of someone to call, someone to talk to that could sit with me, or sit with her because i couldn't take her being sick anymore. I hate hospitols. I hate the smell, the lights, the overly nice nurses, and there fake smiles. This whole night I was alone. And tonight I'm sleeping alone, my mom is staying at GVH i don't know when she is coming home. But i don't like the this feeling. I want my Dad. I want him to be with me, and to sit with her. Ask her how she is doing. I don't if its becasue i am extremely tired, or what but i cant stop crying. Ihate him for leaving me alone, why should i have to take care of my mom by myself. Where the fuck are you. I know being dead is your excuse but if you were a live you would probably have some other excuse. Drinking or getting high. I hate that i miss you. I hate being alone. I hate crying.

stop crying, you dont cry.

Fucking suck it up you baby.